with recent events and the current state of my life which seems to be falling apart, i’ve been thinking way too much. now that its graduation season, i’ve been thinking about unfolding events of this time last year and how badly things turned in the blink of an eye. nearly everyone i’ve gotten close to has fucked me over for something incredibly dumb. i’ve never had any success with getting along with girls and any time i do, things usually end badly. i’ve made myself enraged with the past, thinking about all the shitty things girl friends have done to me, most of which involve boyfriends or general backstabbing. i don’t know what i do to deserve this from other girls but being outwardly malicious, sleeping with boyfriends and treating me like shit just doesn’t seem like fair penance for an undeserving act. everything up to this point in my life are the reasons as to why i don’t get close to people or even trust most of them.

p.s. i’m not even mad at you, you just hurt me more than you’ll ever know, you’re a terrible friend. also, i bought you blink tickets, but you would only know that if you weren’t too much of a coward to apologize. but, this was the last straw, i’m done.